Thursday, September 29, 2005

In Print

Got the flyers for the faitrade tour today and I must say they look pretty swanky!
I'm pretty excited about the tour. I was talkingto one of the organizers in Worthing this morning and it really hit me that this is gonna be a cool thing. People are excited about this.
I have my dreams and my head buzzes with them. It's when you get it in print or on CD or see the solid result of something that it really hits you.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Interesting Gig

Interesting Gig the other night at the Four Provinces in Coventry.
It's an Irish Pub, very friendly and normally it rocks. People dancing by the end of the night. But the other night, maybe I didn't carry the usual party type vibe, the regular tunes didn't carry. People didn't dance and eventually I wend to some of the newer songs.
There were a few covers. Bad Day by Daniel Powter is at the top of my list at the moment. Says a lot to me. You had a bad day, so what!
Then i put in a few new songs including Miss You, All we need is Love and Holding On. I finished early and thought it was not good.
Then I was surrounded by people buying CD's. So no dancing but that was OK
I get freaked out sometimes at the power there is in music to comunicate something, to change a mood in a place or to capture something thats already there. It's like a huge responsibility which is why I have to sing truth and right what I know about or I'm going through.
There's a responsibility to express what other people want to say.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

New Songs...

Well, I have some new songs. - all about the things I'm going through at the moment. One's called Holding On and it's about NOT holding on. What happens when you ket go of things that you always trusted in.
We were asked at work the other day what our fears are and how we overcome them. I have a fear of being married with two kids in a semi in suburbia for the rest of my life. Doing nothing. How doi I get over it. I guess I spend my life kicking against the status quo.
As I've said I'm a Christian but at the moment I'm testing that to the limit. It's so easy to go along with what you're supposed to do. I don't want to intentionally do the wrong thing but I want to know that what i believe is right.
I was talking to Jean the other day and I realised that my relationship with God is hot and cold like a friend that you sometime hang out with for ages and othertimes to forget about. Jean doesn't see god so much as her friend but as father/lord/big guy type of thing. I need some of that but I can't conjour it up.