Stuff I don't know

A good friend of mine woke up the other day to find one of his freinds was dead.
When we talked my freind said he knew I'd be good to talk to because I'd been through stuff like that myself. I'd know how to get through it. The right words to say and the right things to do.

Well.

I have been there, albeit in different circumstances. My sister died suddenly when she was 20 and then my dad was killed in the events of 9-11 in New York. And there was a time when I though that I'd learnt something. I don't mean in a complacent way that says this type of thing will be a breaze the next time, but in a way that would emit wisdom beyond that of those who haven't gone through the same stuff.
I've been thinking about this with my son as well. I sometimes get wound up and frustrated with some of the things he does. why? Because I see myself in him and want to tear it out of him! How on earth did I get through growing up doing stuff like THAT? I'd like to give him the fatherly advice that I think i should be giving him but, hey, I haven't got a clue how I got here.

Life situations often teach you nothing more than without the grace of God you'd be frazzled. Sure, I know to listen more than I did and I've learnt so much theory about trials and struggles, but often there are no right or wrongs.

Lean on God's grace, where-ever it comes from and you wont go wrong.

Poem 1

There
Are diamonds on the window pane
Must've been
Heavens rain
That fell
Now
The diamonds break up the sun
Coloured tones
See them run
I fell
But promises
Come haunting me
Of chains that hold
A love slave free
Of storms that rage
Peace in me

Collide!

Just played a 90 minute gig at the Upper well. It was really strange, I think because it's my two worlds kind of crossing over.
My church meets my gigs.
It's funny because as much as I like to think people accept me for who I am, in each of these areas of my life I can be quite selective with which part gets shown in which world. It's stupid really. I say so often I beleice in what i'm doing in most things that I do. I know that I'm a christian because I know that God is real and Jesus is my friend. But then I know that the music is right because God has given me stuff to say in music that is for outside the church. And I know that the church is where I should be as well. But I can't handle these things coliding with each other. Doh!