So, Is He In It?
OK, after 20 years or so of saying I'm a Christian, last nigt I took the plunge.
Yup
I decided that God IS real. Not bad eh? I've been questioning and testing my Christianity for a while now after realising that it's ease to live under a kind of Christian Gloss-Over. Underneeth there's still the stuff that hasn't been christianised.... I could say this in all in the way that christains do but that for me right now is all the gloss. I need the basics again. Warts and all - and not selected warts.
SO, God's there. Why did I decide that? Over the last 20 years I've challenged God with things like, "if You're there then do this", and I've accepted what's happened. Sometimes I've been blown away, sometime the cynic could argue for coincidence. But in the end, I have to decide for myself. A faith based on only what we see is week and limited. I could never believe that there is no God and there's a bit in the bible that says it's a fool that says as much. I'd agree. To think you can prove the non-existance of God is a foolish thing.
But what now? What do I live for? If there's God then I want to know Him properly which i guess is why I'm in this state in the first place. And it's a bit thlike the guy that met Jesus and said, "Lord I believe, help me in my unbelief!"
I think I know but I need to know inside and not just in my head. That's why it's a mess in my head/heart because just in your head, a knowledge of God is totally unfathomable. It doesn't make sense unless it clicks in with your heart.
So all this is happening and I just want to know if God's in it....
Yup
I decided that God IS real. Not bad eh? I've been questioning and testing my Christianity for a while now after realising that it's ease to live under a kind of Christian Gloss-Over. Underneeth there's still the stuff that hasn't been christianised.... I could say this in all in the way that christains do but that for me right now is all the gloss. I need the basics again. Warts and all - and not selected warts.
SO, God's there. Why did I decide that? Over the last 20 years I've challenged God with things like, "if You're there then do this", and I've accepted what's happened. Sometimes I've been blown away, sometime the cynic could argue for coincidence. But in the end, I have to decide for myself. A faith based on only what we see is week and limited. I could never believe that there is no God and there's a bit in the bible that says it's a fool that says as much. I'd agree. To think you can prove the non-existance of God is a foolish thing.
But what now? What do I live for? If there's God then I want to know Him properly which i guess is why I'm in this state in the first place. And it's a bit thlike the guy that met Jesus and said, "Lord I believe, help me in my unbelief!"
I think I know but I need to know inside and not just in my head. That's why it's a mess in my head/heart because just in your head, a knowledge of God is totally unfathomable. It doesn't make sense unless it clicks in with your heart.
So all this is happening and I just want to know if God's in it....
posted by Unknown at 9:01 AM
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