Squeaky Clean

I wonder where I fit? It's all a bit shotgun at the moment, trying to play the acoustic club scene, being interviewed by the media, getting a name in the Christain music scene... questions in my head about where it's all going.
It's mad to think I can pull it all together. I think the Christian thing is out. I am a Christian but in the ccm scene it seems that you have to be squeaky clean. I wonder how David would have fared with his adultery, murder etc. and yet he was a man after God's own heart.
So here am I. Last wek I nearly fell flat on my face and I'm wondering how that will go down. I can't hide it and I need to know where to go with everything now. If God's in it , how's he in it?