Dad again

This thing with the BBC has bought a few things to the surface.
As part of the interview, the guy has had this idea to show some old family snaps of me and Dad. I look throught he photo album and I found one picture. In 32 years I onle have one photograph to prove that me and Dad ever knew each other.
Sometimes I wish I could step back in time and change a few things.

The Scandel...

'the scandel of God's silence in the most heartbreaking hours of our journey is perceived in retrospect as veiled, tender Presence and a passage into pure trust that is not at the mercy of the response it receives.'
Brennan Manning

Fatherhood

I've just spent an hour talking to a guy from BBC1 about Fatherhood. I'm being interviewed soon for Songs Of Praise, they'll be filming a video for one of my songs and talking to me about my Dad, the Fatherhood of God and what I'm like as a Dad or somthing like that .
It's all come up at a rather interesting time.
Last week a horrible thing happened with the one person that I look up to as a father figure. I hate it when things happen between us because they tend to be built so much on misunderstanding. But when feelings run high on both sides of a relationship, whatever kind of relationship, it's hard to talk about those things together.
That's probably all it needs, a talk.

My relationship with Dad only began to florish when we talked through some of the 'issues' we had with each other. Before that we had learned to live with them, or rather live around them, avoiding the No-go areas at all costs.
As I talk about it more, only now six years after Dad died, am I seeing so much in me that needs addressing, healing, mending.
Talking to the BBC man I realised that my relationship with God as a father has run parralel with my relationship with Dad. As God has taught me stuff I've got closer to Dad. When dad died, God carried on regardless, forcing issues that needed dealing with and letting me take them out on Him.