Another Gap but hey....

As I've said on the mayspace whatsit, I'm trying to gear up for this US trip. I have to start by saying I'm really greatful to AL at Lamppost studios for having me over to record butaside from that, I find it tough leaving my family at home and jetting halfway around the world to record.
You know, part of me realises the incredible privilage that I have to do this. How many people get to work doing the thing they love and having the trips abroad etc. It's cool as well, sharing some of your experience through music and knowing that God has a hand on it all the way - kind of makes it beter and worse.
I constantly do the 'I'm no good to do this' thing. I think people look at me as some kind of together christian dude that has the right things to sing about and talk about, a good and stress free home life and a life that rocks. I don't. If I let myself go I can really trash myself, listing the short-comings, hypocrosies and lies that I can let take over sometimes.
When I'm OK I tell myself I'm just how David was.
I have a couple of new songs to record and , like my songs often do, they have the same theme. I need a pure heart, the guts to run the race and the will to fight. Sometime I sing that all I want is Jesus and then get screwed up because it's not all I want. But then, I want it to be all I want. and that's where the desire starts.
Work on it.